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KIMBERLY,

IS

Turning fourteen soon.

AND

She(L)Manga&Animes.
She(L)Romance storys.

ONCE FROM

Ai Tong Primary School.

CURRENTLY IN

Ang Mo Kio Secondary School.
In a cca that is Drama.

WAS POP OUT ON

6, September 1996.

WISHES TO

More good or best friends from MY own class.

Drama Club
Sweet Bygones.

Finally exams are over. A day more to the school holidays. Like we have! * rolls eyes *
Sigh... Even exams are over, I thought that my "friends" would come and talk to me. I didn't think it would become a world of hatred.
What did I mean?
You see, after exams, one of my friend went to talk to me about her problem. Saying that her best friend had been taken by another friend. That was fine. I became her listener and cared for her. But when I did not came to school yesterday, not a single sms from her. People would sms, " What happened to you? Are you okay?" I did not recieve any..
Then I went online. She talked to me. " Hi, did you skipped school? Ha ha."
Erm. For your information, I was sick! I had stomach flu and consistantly having stomach pain! Oh yes, I liked to skip. But, I won't skip if I don't have a reason!
I may look fine, but actually I am not. Likewise, people may look dumb, but they are actually smart. Its the same.. You may look angry, but you are actually not. So, I may look fine but actually I am not. I am not the type that shouts to everyone, telling people that I am sick. I am actually silently sufferring. If you think that I am not, then what makes you think that I am NOT silently sufferring? You have problems, you came to me. When I have problems, I came to you but you gave a the " -.-" look. So was it not the best that I don't look for you?
I am always being ignored. Why must I go towards you? Why can't you go towards me? How lonely I am, did you feel it? Being cheerful and happy isn't as easy as you think it is. Cause for me, I am always living in a world FULL OF LONELINESS!

You were stress, you came to me. I got angry, you say me. When I am not angry, I am just SAYING ABOUT PEOPLE, you say I am angry. I stress, I cried, you didn't do anything. You stress, you cried, I comforted you. So, this is what I get in return - BEING IGNORED. You asked one question, I replied you. When I asked you a question, it took you a day to reply me. If you think that I am angry when I am just saying people. You are wrong. I am angry when I am really pissed. When I shouted that day in class, that was for someone. I was not angry. It was my friend. Then, you said " Need me to pour ice at you?" To be frank, I am not angry. But when you said that, I was pissed. Can you get your facts right before saying anything? If you think that you know me well, THINK AGAIN. Cause, you don't. I have not fully shown what is my real personalilty. This is only three-quarter of it. Up to now, I have always been showing a three-quarter side of me. So don't you think that I am easy to toy with!

I have lots of things in my head now. May be this is why when you read my post, you may not understand it. Let me summarize for you :
- I am always lonely.
- I am using three-quarter of my personaility. This is what I think!
- I am not your toy. Need me, use me. Don't need me, you throw me aside!

I dont belong to anyone. I dont belong anywhere. I am not welcome by anyone. I am not welcome in anywhere. I dont exist. I am not being remembered. This is my Life.



What’s your problem sia? I know that she is just a young girl. But at least I didn’t treat her like an animal right? I still treated her as a human right?
So what is your problem? She beat me, I never said anything. YOU called her to beat me, I just jokingly said, “I’ll come and beat you!”
She stood there, I just pulled her hair a bit and she started to cry. Then you all come and make noise at me, saying that I beat her. Which shit eye told you that I beat her? Any evidence? So please lah, don’t anyhow accuse people can or not?
First up, she beat me, it’s was you who called her to do that. I DIDN’T SAY ANYTHING. Now, she ACTED LIKE SHE IS SHIT INNOCENT. You blame me. You never once taught your child how to behave. Now you put the blame on other people. You always said that my father is a lousy father, a black sheep. Though you never said it, I can tell. BECAUSE YOU ARE MY UNCLE. It’s fine you know, cause I somewhat agree. My father is one heck shit father. I know that. But aren’t you the same? Instead of taking care of your own daughter, you went to watch anime, play your bloody PSP. You, instead of taking care of your daughter, went to sleep. Aren’t you the same? Or should I say, you are worse than my father? Well, at least my father knew how to take care of me. You and your wife, what did you all did? NOTHING. You and your wife, all you people did was, sleep, play, enjoy your lives and never taught anything to your daughter. You expected that WE teach your daughter things. Why? You took the easy way out, you know. She hit people, you scold her. I didn’t say that was wrong. But you didn’t teach her the proper way. You didn’t spent ample time with her. I know she wants to play, but she too needs love. And why aren’t you, as a father, not doing so? I’m just a child. A kid. I don’t have a proper home. You should know. But, in front of a person who doesn’t have a proper family, what would the person would think of you and your child?
What I am pissed off is, I didn’t even hit her. It was you who said that I hit her. I just pulled her hair a bit and your start barking like a mad dog. Not like you don’t know your child. She is one troublemaker. How old she is? Only two. But what can I say? She is young. I know. But you spoil her too much. And worse of all. You are just letting her do as she please. I know she doesn’t know things. But hey, look at how she behave. Next year, she will be in kindergarten. How would the teacher and she schoolmates react? Your wife said she wanted the daughter to speak phoenix. Oh please, she still does not know how to say “daddy” or “mummy” yet! Why? Because you, as a parent, did not teach her. Simple reason.
This is what I hate most. What you said always will not come true. Example? You wanted to look after you child. Okay, we know that you got work, hence we helped you to look after her. But when you come home, we expected that you should look after your child. And what did you do? You went to play your stupid PSP. We didn’t say anything. I know I am in no position to say anything but it really annoys me. You already got a house, you should stay there. Not let the house to grow mushrooms and collect dust! You called me to get out of the house, I don’t mind. I don’t mind staying in the road side. As I am an unwanted child. My parents gave birth to me and just dumped me to my grandparents. Then, what are you? Maybe I should live in an orphanage. Maybe I should just enter a girl’s home. I know where is my place. You don’t have to spell it out. My position. My house. How about you? You should reflect on what you did to me. Cause I am in no wrong. Because you accuse me that I hit your child, which I didn’t.
Life is simply unfair. You have a proper family, and I don’t. You should give your child a proper family. Hence when you go somewhere, you should bring your child along. Instead, you just left her with your mother. We know that a maid is expensive. We helped you looked after her. When you are going to have your fun, why can’t you share it with your daughter? She is your daughter, so don’t treat her like your junk! Even if I am your niece, don’t treat me like your animal! Because I am a human. My birthday is coming. I think, I will not look forward to it. Cause I know, no one will celebrate it for me. Don’t worry. Cause I will not be like you and treat people like animals or junks.



I'm back (:
Today was seriously tired... I came back from school, then I went to bathe. After nathing, I was told be go central to buy curry puffs for my family. No choice I went down. After that, I came home and slept on the bed. Today in school... hmmx. What to talk about..
Today I had Literature test. I think I can like JUST PASS? Not sure. First question was worth 10 marks. It was upon 15 marks. I was like thinking " WHAT THE HELL! 10 MARKS FOR JUST A QUESTION?!" Cant ignore it right? Its my test. T.T sad.... Nothing new is going on.. Just that I have less time to stay back for CCA (which is best for me. Too much time taken for studies) and begining of August I have the whole week of tests. Each day have different test going on... Unseen poem, English Paper 2, Chinese compo... Home Econ research, Science test, Geography Test. OH MY GOD. I CAN JUST FAINT IN THE HALL-WAY WHEN I REACHED HOME. Too tired.. Its just after NOMAD and BOOM, everything is being thrown to you calling you to do it at once.
"Exams With Lots of Trouble"
Well, its not really trouble.. Its just that I have lots of group work and I HATE group works. You have to group with people and do everything TOGETHER. If not some people will show attitude to you for no reason... I have this group. One of them started to quarrel with me, erm, hello? She started the fight first. People wants to learn and you wanted to sleep. If you think it this way, if she is tired then what about others? Are you telling me that others is not tired? Please lah. She still can shout at me telling me to go away. Fine, I left the place, TO LET HER SLEEP, and just what? She didnt sleep after I left. Shit right? So what is the point of me leaving when in the end you, yourself, didnt sleep at all? Are you blaming me? This is why I hate group work. Next session, she went to quarral with another teammate, this time, I sat there minding my own bussiness. Our leader was also minding her own bussiness and the two of them were quarraling. Seriously, what is her problem? Thinking that she is right all the time why not she does everything. If she is so smart, why cant she is top of everything? Just because she is from China, doesnt mean that everything she do IS correct. People makes mistakes. So why cant she just shut up, listen to what people have to say, and discuss. Why must you make it so difficult? If you dont wanna respect people, then why do you expect people to respect you? I hate group works. When I was younger, I was more into group works. Now, I can see that things have change alot. No point of me sulking... I should really learn to be patient and calm.
SIGH....



Yes! NOMAD IS OVER! People was going crazy on that day, Like no other diesease had occurred in a life-time...
Now I am in Com Lab going round doing or bother people.. Haha.. too bored.. I am still sleepy, because of the stupid NOMAD... Days by days staying up late like 12am in the morning. Then have to get up the next morning for school. FREAKING TIRED. I am very bored as i have nothing to do at home. This is not typed by me, this is typed by my friend.. I am just saying this to her so she help me type, lol..



Haiz.. I am so tired... After a LONG day of rehearsals for some event, I was so beat..
Can't help it right... After all, it is a BIG event... But still, rehearsals were harsh, OK... NOT THAT BAD but still... Today, I left home around 1.25pm came home around 10.00pm. Late right? Haiz... Now watching a new anime... June holidays really don't feel like a holiday to me... A month just gone by like nobody bussiness... It was very tired... I still have my maths worksheet not done... What I did for the past three weeks was to watch anime... I finished an anime series within a week... so within three weeks, I finished three animes... LOL.. Is it a thing to celetebrate? Anyway, the most important thing is to finish my homeworks and perform for that event( I don't want to say the name of the event). Now my mind was like twirling round and round... I don't even know what I am typing now... LoL.. Too tired already.. By the way, it has been a long time since I had blog... I know my blog is abit DEAD, but ya... I am not a person who really blog daily... I don't really like to blog.. Sometimes, I don't even know what to blog.. hehe. Time for me to watch some anime to cheer myself up. (: Got to go.



Romance huh? Well, I cant say that I am an expert in romance or should I say, relationship? But hey! I do watch romance shows, well of coruse from animes and mangas. I know that I have no rights to say anything about relationships as I am single, until now... Still single. LOL. But you see, I want to share this with everyone. Though those people whom knows me good enough. You all know what I am currently doing...
Okay back to the topic. Romance. I option in romance that, yes its love. But what the whole main idea is relationship.. Yes, you can love each other, but are you sure that this person is your future partner? No one can predict the future, yes everyone knows that. But if you like back the person that you perviously had a crush on... Worse still that you are dating with another girl... That does make you a two-timer isnt? Then I want to ask this question. Why are you still dating and not telling your current girlfriend that you have liked back the person you had a crush before? I mean, you liked person A once. Then you gave up on her. And you went to date with person B. Now you liked back person A. And you didnt tell person B that you liked back person A. You left person B in the dark. But look in the other way round.. Maybe you dont know if you still liked back person A or its just a close relationship? Yes, you may not know. But what happen if you tell person B that maybe you like person A again? Wouldnt it be awkward for both parties?
Wouldnt it be best if you didnt start dating with each other? I suggest that you two should hang out more often then to stop hanging out and in the end went to put your mind into dreamland and think of another princess or prince.
What some people said, " I should wish them happiness and vowed that this is my last time in relationship." What can I say? If you really have lost interest in that person, stop dragging people's time and say what you really think of her or him. I know that it maybe hurting for the opposite party but at least you cleared what you have thought of right? Give up one thing at a time. Dont be too greedy and get into so much girlfriends or boyfriends and in the end you get nothing but slaps. I know I am hush but hey, I have seen it before or you can say I even imagine it before. I have not try it before as I dont want to. My first things up are my studies. I really want to achieve something. But some poeple at a young age went to date.... I was shocked. When I was sec 1. I heard that my classmates had boyfriends or girlfriends. Now I am alright. No more shocks. Just "orh". Haha. If you are like the type of person that I had mention, no offence but please dont go and break your girldfriend or boyfriend heart and just say "I dont like you anymore." Please lah. Why cant you say, "I am sorry but I think it is best if we just stay friends." I know this may hurt but at least its better than saying it out directly? Correct me if I am wrong, people will cut themselves cause their boyfriend or girlfriend had dumped them. My senior said this, "I find it silly to cut yourself. If you dared to cut yourself, must why just jump off the building." Okay, she is a hush person but I can halfly agree with her. Get on with life!!! The world doesnt end at 2012 cause some people said it would. Get off with problems and start a new day! Though I have no rights to say that but its just a friendly advise. Have a nice day and try to think about it. OK? :)



What the heck is going on?
First- My Geography homework.
I lost it but I found it again. Today when I wanted to do it, I couldnt find it.
My bad day Number 1!

Second- Class-mates Grouping Problem.
This is what I want to throw my anger out.
Two of my class-mates, they wanted to group with me close friend. But my close friend wanted to group with me and ask them if they wanted to group me with them.
This is what they replied to her to me : I dont want her!
THEY DONT WANT ME!!!
What the fuck! ( I know this is rude but I'm seriously angry here!)
I wanted to cry.... I sniff during recess but when my close friend talked me, telling me not to get angry.. My tears started to burst out. I said: Just leave me alone. I dont want to talk to you now.

I'm seriously mad. When I got home, I send a message to my best friend (from Drama Club) and my close friend my feelings about this case.

My close friend replied me this : Is not that I dont want you. Is they dont want you.

My best friend replied me this : Dont worry about this. I'm still here. I'm still your friend. Dont let this get into you.

Which message will you prefer to look at?
When I replied my close friend who was the "they". She replied me the names. As expected who was it, I nearly cried again. But i told myself to be strong and who cares about these fucking things. I didnt cry anymore. Why the fucking hell must we even have to do all these project?!
Just because most of the projects I grouped with my close friend, I tihnk they got jealous bacause I'm "stealing" their friend away from them. This again. Primary school I was like that too. I had friendship problems. Then I got enemies because of the number of friends I had. What the hell. Now secondary school is the same. How childish can this be. I'm all alone now. I have to group people like Crystal Lim, Adam Oh. FINE. I'll group with them. I'm sure I will get better marks than them. I mean... Seriously, why must I suffer like this? Maybe I think is about my background..
That is why I still have this thick wall blocking my "out-going personalilty".
I know that even its the case I still have to work with people with nice fucking attitude that they like. I'm really sick of all these.

I'm a lonewolf again. I really wish I have some magical fairy beside me and help me with my things and all. I wish fantasy does exist in the human world. I still can remeber that in my kindergarden days how out-going I was. I made lots of friends when I was younger. People said I changed after primary school. I guess without a family really did hit me. That's why I changed into a real devil about friends.

I want to make a path. I want to surround in darkness. I dont care about things like this anymore.
From nowon, I want to change my attitude towards my studies instead of my attitude to my friends. I cant be too soft-hearted anymore. I felt that everyone is taking my soft-heartedness for granted. I such a fool for not realising that you did like me as a friend, but you took me as a fool. You told me that you didnt want me to be in your group and how does it feels if that was reflected to you?!

I curse you to have this fate : No any friends like you because of this fucking face of yours towards people. Your true colours will be revealed and it will be freaking fucking ugly. You two will definately find this fate upon you!

I'm so mad. I will study hard and make sure I will never see your fucking bloody face ever again.

And bacause of this, I cant find anyone to lend me their geography worksheet for me to copy....
Fuck it. Never ever to make me this mad. Otherwise I will definately slap you. (if you didnt do anything damn bad to me then you wouldnt have seen this side of me!)

NEGATIVE RULES POSITIVE DROOLS!!! Woohoo!